Everything is chaos, and I need a lifeboat.

Weekly Retrospective jan 15-21 2023

Another week where I only got videos done.

There were other things going on and things I am trying not to face. The latter always comes back to haunt the person ignoring it.

So, what have I been up to the past week?

Four videos

It seems I am turning this blog into a weekly newsletter thing, but I promise, I am not.

Torchlight is still a thing on my gaming channel.

Two rants were posted. I am very passionate about writing and entertainment in terms of writing. So, I have a lot to say about the current back and forth.

Falling short…

Monday and Tuesday were making arrangements for hubby to get his health card to keep driving. This put a damper on editing for a few days. I am not blaming him. Life gets in the way, but when you have ADHD and are focused on doing a thing, you have to take a step back, take a deep breath, and refocus, which isn’t easy at the best of times.

I haven’t met a single reading or writing goal this week. I know and have the capability to do it, but at the end of the day, I am sitting there scrolling on social media and watching Youtube videos. I am falling back into bad habits and need to climb out of them.

The elephant in the room…

The 26th is a happy day and a day I dread. We are getting fiber installed, but it will also be the first anniversary of my father’s passing.

I have been pushing it into the back of my mind since the start of the new year. I know I need to face it, but I know no matter how much I prepare, it will still hit me like a ton of bricks.

I am wishing I could go to sleep on the 25th and wake up on the 27th, but I know my mother will need me. So, I will suck it up, keep it tamped down, and work through the feelings later. It’s what I do. It’s not healthy, and I know this, but I have no other way of helping my mom without falling apart in front of her.

Until next time,
Anissa “Maddy” Walker


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